Just Trust Me…

I have been doing a bible study by Beth Moore called, Believing God. It is so timely for me and I know that it is what God wants me to study about right now. It has done so much for my heart and my walk and yet, I almost didn’t do it. Why? Because I thought I had faith. I thought I did believe Him.

Let me explain.

When I was a single mom and even before when I was going through things in my previous marriage I did believe God. I did fully trust Him. I regularly hear people say they want faith like mine because they see what I’ve gone through and so I think that I must have faith. But the problem is my spirit never bore witness to it and I didn’t understand why.

Over the last year I have heard God whisper to me so many times, “Trust me.”

Dozens of times per day the prayer flows from my mind, “God please take care of the boys while they play. Please keep them safe.” Then I hear Him whisper, “Trust me.”

When a medical bill comes in and I immediately become overwhelmed by our finances, I hear Him whisper, “Trust me.”

When I nervously attempt to grab the pregnancy test from the cabinet, I feel Him console me and say, “Trust me.”

To all of this I think… where is my faith? I thought I did trust you God. I really thought I did. Others see it so why don’t you and I?

Then He revealed something to me through this bible study. The God thing is that Beth Moore never hit on this. It is simply something He showed me through the Holy Spirit. He clearly let me know the difference between the faith I had to survive then and the faith I lack now….

I didn’t have a choice back then. I had to have faith because I had nothing else. I had no husband, no steady income, no thing or no one else to put my trust into.

I have a choice now and I had not been choosing Him.

Isn’t God good?

Amen! I am making a conscience effort now to put my trust into Him. I DO BELIEVE HIM! Thank you, Jesus!

How have you struggled with your faith walk? Maybe your experiences could help me with mine!