Three LSU ball caps.
That is what was found when they picked up Mark’s personal belongings. He had purchased one for each of the boys. He never got to give them to them.
I have so many thoughts going through my mind. I keep thinking Mark will miss so much of the boys life. But, will he? I have to believe God will allow him to be here for them during special moments of their lives, times like we had over the last week. There were moments when we all rejoiced because Mark is no longer suffering and in pain. Then there were moments of complete brokenness that spoke loudly of the love that was felt for him. There was also much reflection over how God had orchestrated so many recent events in Mark’s life in preparation for his cross over.
Through my tears I can tell you that it was beautiful.
Those three hats were placed in Mark’s hands, within the casket during the service. When everyone else had gone and the boys stood at his side saying their goodbyes, they were each given their hat. I wouldn’t trade anything for that moment. It was hard but it was full of Him. God had done so much in Mark’s and our lives over the last few months and even years that I can barely think of it without feeling overwhelmed by it.
A week or so ago I posted that I would soon be on a plane and headed to the Relevant bloggers conference. I said that I knew without a doubt that God would speak to me about some things. Well, He did. It wasn’t at the conference like I thought it would be but instead it was here, with my family – mine, Ryans, and Marks. In the midst of pain, grief, joy, peace and love: that is where I heard from Him. I know what I am supposed to do.
Thank you to all of you who lifted us up in prayer over the last week. We felt it. We really, really did. I cannot thank you enough.