Can I share my heart with you for a moment?
For years I’ve battled with an internal struggle. One that pits skills against spirit; knowledge against wisdom; and pride against humility. Most of my friends and readers don’t know (because I don’t advertise) but my “day job” is being a consultant and strategist for authors and online publishers. I study blogs, authors, trends, social media, and reader responses. I use that information to develop marketing plans, vision statements, and help others to make money doing what they love.
I’ve been quite successful at it.
The problem is that I’ve bought the lie that says if you teach you must do. That is the silliest thing I’ve ever heard.
First, I have to want the things I teach others to do. I don’t want to be a mega blogger yet I’ve tried to do these things to my own detriment. Why is it so wrong…?
Because I am not a blogger. I am a Goldy woman with a message. Blogging is simply one way I deliver that message.
Over the last few days I’ve sat amongst several accomplished women serving as an entity to bring a new, fresh perspective to a thriving women’s ministry. These women were New York times best selling authors, event organizers, international speakers, founders of ministries, business owners, and that only scratches the surface. I felt like a fish out of water yet, I felt right at home. Why? Every woman there had a message from God; it was just the method of delivery that was different.
God has sent me on a path of self-discovery over the last couple of months and I’m finally getting what He is trying to tell me. My job should not be to market myself as an author, build my blog, or create a larger platform. He has gifted me to share a message. The method of delivery is simply the fruit of that. That may change over time but the message never will.
That leads me to my blog…
I’ve diluted the message He’s given me in order to do the things I’ve previously mentioned. I’m not doing that anymore. I don’t want to be known as a blogger. I want to share the message. The message He’s given me is to help women overcome the things that hinder them and free them to live in all He has for them.
I enjoy natural cleaning but I’ve neglected to give the main reasons why. It stems from my beliefs. I’ve left that out in order to reach a larger audience. I’m not doing that anymore. “31 Days to a Clean, Fresh Nest” will resume but I will not be leaving out the spiritual aspect of it in order to appease more readers. I’m letting everyone know now so you are free to unsubscribe or not read anymore if you don’t want to. I simply can’t ignore the message burning inside of me any more.
Funny thing is, at this meeting we were each given a beautiful gift. Each one was different. We randomly sat down so no one knew what they would receive. What I received is just what God has been whispering to my heart: a bracelet that was etched with Psalms 37:4.
Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart.
Blogging is not eternal. The message of God is.
I hope you understand.
btw… I do not for one minute think it is wrong to write for reasons different from mine. This is a personal issue and something I was convicted of. For some, blogging is a “day job”. It isn’t for me. For me, it should be the fruit of my message. I haven’t been treating it that way though.